part zero

when I read the first comment on one of my posts I was shocked! at first I had the feeling that I was writing to myself but when I saw the comment I was scared, I was telling my self what will he think of me after several posts?.

any way I want to do this because they all say it makes you feel better .. dont know yet.

so I came back home I went online choose a nickname and started checking what others are talking about on the main screen. this guy talked to me in a new screen, I just liked the way he talked and took his email. that all happened in less than an hour. I have never returned to chatting this after this half an hour! you will know why next ..

the next day, there was a problem with my sister's pc. I came online saw this new guy online, I told him if he knows any shop I can take this pc to. he told that he owns a shop himself and i said yeah ok I will come and give you the pc. the same afternoon I took the pc went to the shop. I felt that the place was kind of empty. I was wearing a black long skirt with a black shirt that is twice my size and a black hjab too. I don't wear any makeup as i stated prevoiusly. I was just a normal girl or maybe less :S

as i entered the shop, i saw him there i kind of liked the way he looks. i sat down waited him to check whats wrong with the pc. he said that I need to format the pc you can keep it for a day. I told him ok and i wanted to leave but he held my hand I got scared!! @@
he told me that i looked like a cute kitten (how??? was he blind?) I wanted to leave I tried to push him away but guess what happend he kissed me yesss!!!!! he did?????

i then ran away to my car and went back home. i was so nervous, so scared and didnt know how to explain what just happened back there?????? why the hell would he do something like? What did I do? I didnt do anything!!! 7ata ma kent 7a6a perfume nothing???

I have never talked to a guy before over the phone! and this is what I deserve? I know that girls talk to guys when they are just 14 but none of what happened to me did happen to them? and guess what Im 20 not 14! ya3ni i'm not a kid??